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Tuesday, January 27, 2009

There's too many title

I was given an awesome scolding from my mom .
Smart . (trying hard not to insult my family)

Yesterday, I saw the Eclipse, cool thing .
Urm, had a cousin gathering & it's an occasion for my bro who is getting married this October and also of the day of the Eclipse .
I passed out after seeing the Eclipse, I was the only one who witness out of the many people in my house .

So, yeah, school's driving me nuts . I am taking things to hard, and it's hypnotizing me .
Sadly . *uhhhh*

As usual, I just wish I could runaway from home .
What's the use of going home with high hopes, & once your enter home, all your hopes were wasted .
Plus, just when I thought my dreams were getting close to me, instead, not drifting, its GONE .

Sad huh, my one CHANCE of getting my own life has GONE .
What's the use of being optimistic when all of it were being wasted .
Thinking that the OX year is gonna make a huge difference in my life, but the horns pierce me hard .
I am trying my best to be strong, praying every single second of my life .
Just as I thought 2009, year of happiness, became the year which is not worth existing for me .

My family is falling apart . FALLING APART .
DO they even notice ?
DO they even FnCKING REALISE that I am breathing a polluted air within the walls ?
Studying with my brother, made a lil easy .
Sadly, he'll be living under a different roof then mine .

I am giving up with my family alr . Soo much of thier empty promises .
Making me put on a high hope for ntg . piece of shit .

The reason why i blogged very little it's mostly, ntg interesting is worth sharing, a nightmare is more like it .
The only best part would be hanging out with my seniors & friends .

I just wish I could be adopted by a well-off family & there, I wanna go chase back the dream which have run away from me .

& to Ryuk, get well soon dude (: